Not Tonight

"What will bring me home?
What will make me stay, stay?
What will bring me home?
What will make me stay, stay?
Well I don't know, I don't know oh."
--Tegan and Sara


So, like my musical selection conveys....I have a big decision to make. My cousin Bree is wanting me to rent an apartment with her in Batesville, so we can live together while we go to the same school. If she had asked about oh, 3 months ago, it would be happening. Now, I'm not too sure. I decided last week that I wanted to move home; I started making preparations for that. Bree isn't even entirely decided that she wants to go to UACCB, so there's still something to think about for her. For me, there are quite a few factors playing into this decision. So...I'm gonna make a pros and cons list. And I'm gonna do it here :) Pros of moving home, cons of that as well

Pros

• SAVE MONEY!!!
• Spend more time with Dad
• Spend more time with friends that live here (mostly everyone, now)
• Have all my bills paid for; all my money would go to my pocket.
• Bree's a drama queen (I'd be dodging a bullet)
• It'll be easier for me when I go to transfer schools
• Piss Phyllis off.
• Actually have groceries, Satellite and DVR
  
• My DOG

Cons

• The drive back and forth(30 mins)
• Give up my freedom
• Have to do Randy's nasty laundry
  

So, thats it for now. I'll probably come up with other things but it basically rolls down to...I want to save some money and have more fun.

Celebrity Skin

"Oh, make me over
I'm all I wanna be.
A walking study
In demonology"
--Hole
( Yes, I was feeling Courtney Love today)

This is a picture of the railroad tracks that go through our farm, its beautiful out there.
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I made it back from Branson at noon today. It was an....interesting trip. I did a lot of shopping and got some great bargains; I even got Ricky Dale some new clothes which he really needed. I prefer Branson trips without the whole family. We all used to go but we haven't been together since before Dale died and its just not the same now, almost awkward. We're older now and don't care much about amusement parks and bumper boats. Our grandparents only went to see us have fun which is really sweet.

Class starts again Monday; I'll be done for the week on Wednesday :)
and not that anything is much different, but I am now officially single and for all the Joe-haters that means we are D-O-N-E. And no, I'm not that worried about it lol.
My goal for the next few weeks is to get my bedroom at dad's house back to its function as an actual place to sleep. All my old furniture (except for the bed) is in here, but its covered in crap i no longer need. I'm gonna clean out everything that isn't useful and get this place back to its former glory. Sleeping in a recliner sucks.

Thinking About Tomorrow

"Tired but I ain't sleeping,
Thinking about some sad affair,
And why should I be leaving,
Cause some of these thoughts only seem to take me outta here.
These habits are so hard to break and they're so easy to make.
These habits are so hard to break and they're so easy to make."
---Beth Orton

So, this morning I woke up to a fuzzy creature on my face. I figured it was Callie so I told her to get off and that didn't happen so I opened my eyes and Dad was standing over me and the fuzzy creature wasn't Callie. Dad went on one of his excursions to who knows where and came back with a little puppy. He's an Imperial Shi-tzu teacup and he's pretty adorable. He has blue-gray eyes and a cute little brown nose. He's tiny and very playful. We decided to keep the Grey's Anatomy name tradition going on because we already have a Tucker (Bailey's son), Callie (Dr. Torres) and now we have an Owen (Dr. McRambo aka Hunt). Usually I'm the one who brings home animals because I have that problem but it wasn't me this time. Dad's getting attached to the little booger. Its day 1 and I'm not sure how its all gonna go when I have to go back to class and Dad's at work all day. Little Owen has Callie and Tucker for guidance, even though they don't approve of him right now. Of course I plan on sneaking Owen into my apartment every once in awhile; he's so tiny i could probably fit him in a taco bell bag :)
Above are pictures of the little dude ;)

Heavy In Your Arms

"I was a heavy heart to carry
My beloved was weighed down,
My arms around his neck,
My fingers laced to crown.
I was a heavy heart to carry,
My feet dragged across the ground
And he took me to the river where he slowly let me drown...
...
I'm so heavy, heavy. Heavy in your arms."

--Florence + the Machine

The song is a little glum but today is, in fact, a good day. My friend Kelby stayed with me last night and we had a pretty good night. It was hard to wake up this morning but once I did I got my butt to class and took my final. I have a good grade in the class, but there's always room for improvement. The professor let us take a notecard full of whatever info we could fit on it into the test with us and that helped majorly. He also went over pretty much every problem on the test the day before so I knew what to expect. I'm confident that I made an A on it, and I can usually never say that about a math test!

I made a decision. Today was supposed to be my last day in Batesvegas for awhile; I was going to go back to the big BK to spend the remainder of the summer. BUTTTTT, that changed. A class opened up in the Summer III term and I really need to take it so I signed up for it. Its Biology for Majors and it'll start at 8am (yeah I know thats not good for me) and go til about 2pm. 3 days a week, which isn't too bad. I was nervous that this would be a hard class to take in such a short amount of time but a friend who took the same class in the Summer II term said it was super easy and I would have an awesome grade. He better be right! So I'm not totally dreading it, it will put me ahead of schedule to get it out of the way.

I have about 6 days off from class and I'm excited about that. I'll probably go hang out with mi madre for a little while and spend the rest chilling in BK.
Til then :)