Where Does The Good Go?

Today's artist= Tegan and Sara

I've been home in BK all weekend, which usually always proves to be extra boring and uneventful. Not this weekend. Friday night, I was feeling a little low so Sheila came to stay the night with me. We woke up early the next morning to hit up the bank, and tried to pick out some furniture for our place. My mom was in town letting my aunt do her taxes so we met up with her and had lunch at Casa Brava. We came back to my house and Sheila left to go hang with her bf, Donovan. I was tired of not having a phone so I went to at&t and got a go phone, unlimited call and text for $60 a month, I'm pretty pumped.

Something I'm not pumped about, being sick. I'm thinking I have a cold gone brutal, but I'm not sure. I feel horrible!

Today is Sunday, I woke up early this morning to let the dogs out and made a field trip to Mickey D's to get Dad and I some breakfast. Needless to say, he was pretty shocked. I should be doing homework instead of writing this but ya know, I'm not one to prioritize well on the weekends. The rest of my day will consist of homework, taking care of Alba, and going back to Batesville. I'm hoping for a good week!

"Where do you go with your broken heart in tow?

What do you do with the leftover you?

And how do you know, when to let go?

Where does the good go?

Where does the good go?"

Live and Learn

Tonight's selection is brought to us by The Cardigans.

I will begin by announcing that my phone is currently on the fritz. If you text me, I can more than likely see it but I can't text you back. I'm hoping this will all be fixed soon.

There is a new addition to our little family! Sheila and I adopted two baby cocker spaniel mix puppies. They are two precious 6-week-old girls and they are already settling into our home. A classmate of mine had these puppies and they were about to meet a horrible fate, so Sheila and I decided we would take one. When we actually got to see them, we couldn't begin to separate one from her family so we adopted two. Sheila named her puppy Carly; I named mine Alba. I chose Alba because it was a name in one of my favorite books, The Time Traveler's Wife, and because it means dawn, or sunrise. I thought this would be a good omen after what was laid to rest at the beginning of the week. I'm not going to say its easy to sleep in my bed alone after sharing it with someone but I'm hoping the old adage "when one door closes another opens," comes true. I haven't taken any pictures of Alba yet but I will soon so I can post them up for everyone to see!

As the week is winding down, I will say that it was all-in-all a horrible week. I had a great night Thursday night; Nikki and Kelby came over to stay with us and we got a short visit from Kenn, a guy in Sheila's class. It was good to spend a night with friends and I'm looking forward to another session.

"I stared into the light, to kill some of my pain.

It was all in vain cause no senses remain,

But an ache in my body and regret on my mind, but I'll be fine.

Cause I live and I learn.

Yes I live and I learn."

King of All Excuses

This is my first post in a few days, it has been crazily hectic. My title belongs to Staind.

Monday:

I went to lunch with my friends Sheila and Ginny. We had a great time but were a little late to class.

We made it to class, and that turned out to be fun as well. I know right, shocker. After I got out of

class it was time to make the trip to Mountain View to have a little chit-chat with Joe about where

we stood and all that jazz. To put it lightly, it did NOT go well. His reasons for us splitting revolved

around the fact that he thought it wasn't fair to me, being with someone that I couldn't see. (He was

right that isn't fair) I'm pretty sure I noticed a "love mark" on his neck, and I'm even more sure that

it wasn't from me! He denied it but he's a good liar. I was devastated and I managed to make it back

to Batesville. Got here, had a horrible night followed by horrible sleep.

Tuesday:

I had a day full of classes today. I felt horrible still and went in sweats and a Northface pullover.

Skanky was my goal. Before my Human Growth and Development class, my friends Kelby and

Nikki informed me that we were going to Ihop as soon as Sheila got off work for free pancakes.

That never actually happened but we did make field trips to Wendy's. We laughed the whole night

and I slept better. The "wolf pack", minus aaron, had a great night and it helped majorly.

Wednesday:

Today, I don't have class until 2 and my major concern is my phone, which is cocking up. Greattt.

Just what I need. I'm hoping the day will go smoothly. Tomorrow the wolf pack is joining again

for another round of fun. Sounds gay, I'm aware of this. I'm going to meet Sheila's new boyfriend.

His name is Donovan and he is 16. She's cougaring it up! :)

"Did you forget that you were family, the damage you have done.

You've lied so much you think its true.

Do you know what the truth is?

How does someone get to be like you?

The King of All Excuses."

Somewhere A Clock Is Ticking

Today started out promising. Tonight's selection is by Snow Patrol.

Dad woke early this morning to a phone call from one of his friends asking him to come bail him out of jail. That was fun.

I woke up and started getting around for Sarah Lou's baby shower, which I was very excited for. As I got in my car to leave, I got stuck in my front yard due to all the rain we received making it a muddy mess. This delayed my travels. I'll say sorry once again for being so late. :(

I made it to the shower, which was pretty eventful. I saw some old friends I haven't seen in awhile and even met new ones. I left and made my way back to Batesville. I settled into my warm recliner with some Grey's Anatomy reruns and soon found that my step-father, Lance, had been stabbed 6 times in the head and was being taken to Baptist hospital in Little Rock. Lance is a lieutenant at the Tucker Max prison facility. I was very worried for awhile, mostly for my mother. I'm sure she was having a horrible time. She soon told me that he is awake and seems to be okay. I guess he had his wheaties this morning :) Man is a trouper. Now if it was only that simple to calm my nerves!

Now I can only hope that everything stays in this condition and improves.

Tomorrow I'll hopefully meet up with Joe

"I've got this feeling that there's something that I missed.

I could do most anything to you...

Don't you breathe.

Don't you breathe.

I could do most anything to you...

Something happened, that I never understood

I could do most anything to you...

You can't leave.

You can't leave.

I could do most anything to you..."

Come As You Are ( A Beginning)

I will begin my first post by noting that it's title is the name of a song I am currently "feeling." This will probably be the norm for each of my posts; it seems like a good system. Whether or not the song has anything to do with something significant, is up to you.

Let your imaginations wander ;)

Tonight, I chose "Come As You Are" by the late-great Nirvana. To say that today was eventful would be putting it lightly. I woke up a little on the late side, because thats what Saturdays are for. Not too long later I received a Facebook message from my current mancandy letting me know that I had lost the battle I was waging against long-distance relationships. Way to go, huh? Of course I was sad. Disappointed is a better word for my feelings. I had to get out of the house so I got in my car and headed to BK and let Sarah rescue me for a little while. We made an excursion to Wally-World to pick up supplies for the night's events. We headed back to her place, then set out again for the AGB Benefit at the Living Room in Searcy. The bands did a great job, I only wish that a few morons in attendance would've behaved like adults and not 12 year old cavemen. To everyone who came out to support our cause, which is raising money and awareness for Cystic Fibrosis, thank you and keep it up; it means more than you know. After the show I spent a little quality time with my roommate, Sheila and a few of our friends. We had to make a quick stop by the ER for my friend whose nose is broken due to the idiots at the show being reckless. We continued to the Underground, a place I love but do not get to spend enough time in. We chilled for awhile and I then took Sheila back to her car and headed back to the old homestead. My drive was nice; it let me mill things over in my poor, overwhelmed brain.

As far as Joe (boyfriend's name is Joe too) goes, I'm pretty unsure about everything and hope to have everything cleared up Monday, whether we stay together or not. :(

I will end this by sharing a funny happening of the night. I came home and thought my dad, aka "The Randy" was asleep on the couch. I didn't say anything to him as I came in, I just quietly came to my room. About an hour later I heard the dogs, Callie and Tucker, barking insanely which usually means someone is here. I go into the dining room and sure enough, there are headlights outside. I yell to dad, "hey somebody's here." No response. Phyllis (don't get me started) came to the door and started scratching the glass which freaked me the eff out. Sure enough dad followed her in. I felt pretty damn dumb. :)

"Come, as you are, as you were, as I want you to be.

As a friend, as a friend, as a known enemy.

Take your time, hurry up,

Choice is yours, don't be late.

Take a rest, as a friend, as a known memory."