Turn and Turn Again

Tonight, or I should say, this morning belongs to All Thieves.

Its 3:30am. Why I cannot sleep is beyond me! I'm unbelievably tired but that doesn't seem to have much to do with it. Today was an OK day. I skipped my English class on account of the sleep I needed, sounds like I'm a lazy bum! I went to all my other classes and I even stayed to finish my 3 hour chemistry lecture, which is something I don't do often. I even learned...just a little. I'm proud to announce that my grades are great and stable. :)

I made the mistake of looking at someone's facebook profile again today. I'm sure I don't even have to give away his name. Still made me a little sad :(

I don't have too much to say tonight. The thought above sets my mood. The song below gives it a little boost.

"Worn from walking this far,

So worn from talking this much,

And what we've found, and what we've seen as the road casts down,

And the lights come up to meet us,

Silent for the evening, we enter this town like newborn creatures,

Those I know I see anew, and the space between us is reduced,

For I am human, and you are human too.

So turn and turn again,

We are calling in all the ships,

Every traveler please come home and tell us all that you have seen,

Break every lock to every door,

Return every gun to every drawer,

So we can turn, and turn again."

I'd Hate To Be You When People Find Out What This Song Is About

Tonight goes to Mayday Parade :)

Its Monday; everybody hates Mondays. I'm currently trying to rearrange my room because I need a change. The first wave happened last night, and since my bed is in a different position it took me forever to fall asleep. Its amazing how the littlest things can keep me up.

When morning came, it was actually the afternoon. I was awakened by a phone call from a friend who wanted in my house, nice I know. I was really dragging all day, I even felt a little puny. I went and enjoyed some El Aculpoco with my friends, and almost fell asleep doing so. Its like I had narcolepsy or something. If only my teachers would believe that one.

I went to my only class for the day, oral communication. It was as boring as I was prepared for. I came home, and went back to bed. I know, I'm a lazy bum today. I woke up and decided to go grocery shopping. I know its kinda weird to go so late but going during the day makes me angry (i'm a little impatient and nobody should get road rage in the walmart). I then went to my friend Amanda's house so we could do our chemistry homework together. I made it home at like 2am. Its 3:02 and I can't even sleep. Hope everyone else is having better luck than I am!

I'm a little disappointed because something that I had actually been looking forward to for today, didn't happen. Why I'm disappointed? I'm not even sure. :)

"And I'm sorry, that this wasn't easy.

When I asked you 'believe me?'

You never let go

...but I let go."

Ring The Alarm

Who doesn't LOVE Beyonce? She did a great job at describing the mood I'm in tonight, so she definitely deserves to have my post's title.

Yesterday I came to find that my ex-mancandy is now engaged to "the best woman he's ever met." That in itself is a slap in the face, especially since its only been three weeks since we broke up. He even went as far to comment on the Facebook status that announced this with something that was directed to me and my friends. Something along the lines of "if you have a problem with it I would rather not know you, I know it sounds cold but you guys know who you are." Well I definitely know who I am, but I don't think he has a clue who he is. It probably doesn't help that one of my friends who used to love him messaged him calling him everything but a white man :)

I found out today that the woman he's engaged to is a girl I actually met while we were together. She has a child and he doesn't really want children. Way to go! No wonder she looked at me so weirdly when he introduced us. For them to be engaged, I'm sure he had to be cheating on me for some amount of time.

I'm bothered, but I was fine before him, and I'll be even better after him.

I have a problem with looking at his Facebook page just to see more details, the more I learn the madder and more hurt I get. I'm a masochist.

Hope she will foot your bill with more enthusiasm than I did, bum :)

The Planets Bend Between Us

Today---> More Snow Patrol

I'm in Branson with the Randy this weekend. I came home Thursday morning to dads surprise trip up here. We come here 2-3 times a year and we have since I was probably 4 years old.

I haven't been many places and I haven't seen much but I never ask to go somewhere new, this is our thing. We come here, just me and him, to get away, even if its just for a couple days.

The trip started out with a bit of discouragement. The hotel we normally stay in, the Spinning Wheel Inn, was closed down for remodeling so we had to stay at its sister hotel, Twelve Oaks Inn (yes like Gone With The Wind). So that was a break in our tradition.

Today I did my favorite activity Branson has to offer....shopping.

I'm pleased to announce I'll be coming home with 2 new Coach bags that I did not overpay for, among other things. Dad and I were going to try to see Alice in Wonderland in Branson's IMAX theater but its sold out :(.

We will be leaving tomorrow morning so I can make it back to Batesville and not have to rush for class Monday.

As far as whats going on at home....

Alba now has a new home. She was adorable and I'm super sad to have had to let her go but my lifestyle was unfair to her. I'm always in class so I could never be with her to keep her company and train her. She deserves better. I'm glad I saved her from being obliterated but I just couldn't keep her. My roommate has her sister so if anybody is in need of a cute puppy, hit me up.

I've had a great weekend; I greatly appreciate dad for bringing me. Now that I've moved, we don't get to spend that much time with each other so its weekends like these that make me grateful I have a father who still dotes on me and takes care of all my wants and needs even though I'm nearly 19. I've always known I'm very lucky.

"The sea filled in the silence

Before you sank those words

And now, even in the darkness

I can see how happy you are."

Don't Stop

About tonight:

• Selection comes from Fleetwood Mac
• Its a bit of an antonym for my day
• My day was horrible

I had one class today. One. Seems like an easy day right? Not always. (I went in sweats)

The class= oral communication. We had a test and we had outlines we could write all over and use to help us out. I spent hours writing all over those damn things and hardly any of it helped me. Success.

I came home and tried to take a nap but that didn't work out well since Sheila came bouncing in the house on the phone with her mancandy.

I got up and was hungry so I decided to cook a frozen pizza. BIG MISTAKE. The oven caught on fire. It was like a dragon. I know why this happened but it would take too long to explain so....it straight up caught on fire. I threw water on it. Was that a mistake? Well it made a big pow and then smoke was everywhere, then it was done. The puppies were scared to death; I was a little scared/pissed myself. So the house was all smoked out and it looked like some hippies had been squatting in our living room for about 2 weeks. The smell was awful.

The good thing about today is that I found out my phone I ordered off Ebay will be in soon! I'm super pumped.

I also found out yesterday that my landlord's hot son thinks I'm "cute." So maybe this week won't be a total let down :)

"If you wake up and don't smile,

If it takes just a little while,

Open your eyes, and look at the day,

You'll see things in a different way.

Don't stop thinking about tomorrow,

Don't stop, cause it'll soon be here"